STAJCIC:
"I FEARED I MIGHT NEVER COACH AGAIN".
Central Coast Mariners boss Alen Stajcic admits he feared he might never coach again after the brutal way Football Federation Australia axed him as Matildas coach.
Stajcic was sacked after five years in the post without any warning in January, in a move which later sparked a series of apologies and a payout to the coach.
It also saw the FFA deputy chair Heather Reid stand down from per post on health grounds, and sparked an internal FFA inquiry.
None of it gave Stajcic back his Matildas job though despite successfully guiding the Matildas to the France 2019 Women's World Cup as one of the favourites to take the trophy.
But with Ante Milicic unexpectedly seconded into a caretaker coaching role for the tournament, the team crashed out disappointingly at the round of 16 stage instead.
And while the storm of protests from players past and present rolled out around him earlier this year, Stajcic was left to ponder if he had any future left in the game.
His reputation was stained by deliberate obscure references by FFA CEO David Gallop to the apparently damaging findings of two separate surveys conducted for the FFA by the PFA and Our Watch.
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But it was later revealed neither organisation had even suggested sacking the coach, and the issues raised in the surveys were to be addressed at a players and coaching staff workshop in Sydney just days later.
At home, Stajcic had to adapt from planning a World Cup campaign to planning a future of any kind – and the worry that it might never again be in coaching.
"That thought crossed my mind at some point," he tells the new FTBL Podcast. "I didn't see anything at that time. I had the usual cliches from people around me that when one door closes another one opens.
"But you just don't see it at that time. You don't know where you're going to end up. It was a tough time for sure."
He admitted: "Things definitely haven't panned out or played out as I expected in 2019.
"I probably didn't expect to be sitting where I am at the moment. Like anyone who's gone through anything like that, it's all a setback.
"But I haven't seen anyone's journey in life or football be a linear progression. You've got to show resilience and I always talk about that with the players.
"I had to look in the mirror, jump back on my feet and find a way to fight my way through the tough times."
Stajcic relied on family and friends to help give him hope, and it's an experience he feels has made him better as a coach and one that has helped him relate even more to the Mariners.
"I've got a strong family unit who were there in the tough times and a good friendship network as well," he tells FTBL.
"That's vital when you when you're in tough times like that, so I can only be thankful and grateful to them."
Among the supporters were two of his assistant coaches at the Matildas, Paul Jones and Nahuel Arrarte who quit in protest over the FFA's action.
"Both of them sacrificed the World Cup to show support and loyalty and a massive amount of integrity as well," said Stajcic.
He admits he was disappointed by what happened to the Matildas in France, but highlights the increasing quality of women's football around the world.
"I was a little disappointed," he told the FTBL Podcast. "I want to see the Matildas and Socceroos succeed.
"Right from when I started with the Matildas, our goal was to become one of the best teams in the world and by the time I'd finished, I think we were pretty close to being one of the best.
"I think everyone who who's grown up in football in this country – we've always had that underdog mentality, wanting to beat and and compete with the big guns around the world and show that we can stand on our own two feet.
"I think that's going to be a continuous battle for both the Matildas and the Socceroos going forward."
He added: "That women's football is now become so competitive is really positive for football and for women's football around the world.
"The fact that in countries which probably didn't care about it so much in the past, like Spain and Italy, and some of those Latino countries are starting to take women's football a little bit more seriously just shows how big the sport is getting so quickly.
"I just saw Bocca beat River Plate and there was 6000 people in Argentina - real football countries taking it seriously.
"And big crowds in Spain, in Italy, for club football in England now, the rise of Manchester City and Manchester United are in their premier league now as well.
The Champions League for women as well now – the international scene is just a reflection of how much more investment in time and care is being put into the game.
"Looking forward to the future, I think that there are some real positives for women's football around the world. But the fact that our players are already on the cusp of being the best players in the world really means that we can stamp our authority as a national team."
After being devastated by the Matildas axing, a spot in the A-League seemed unlikely to Stajcic.
But after watching on television as the Mariners suffered yet another defeat last season, this time against Wellington Phoenix, Stajcic took the call that would bring him back to coaching.
After the Gosford side were crushed in a humiliating 8-2 thrashing, coach Mike Mulvey was sacked – and club CEO Shaun Mielekamp got on the phone to Stajcic the next day.
"I've been a close friend of Mike's for 15 years and I was just hoping they would do really well for his sake – and saw it all unravel that night," said Stajcic.
"I received a call the next day from Shaun who I'd met only once or twice in my life prior to that and he asked if I would be interested, so you know, it was an opportune moment.
"I'm just extremely grateful to owner Mike Charlesworth and Shaun that they had faith to call me and give me the job, both short-term and now for a three year term.
"I think both the club and myself are in probably similar predicaments where we were at our lowest ebbs – and I had to pick myself up personally.
"And that's definitely the motto around the club, trying to pick ourselves up, from the front office to all the football staff to the playing group as well."
He added: "I've always taken the same mentality and same philosophy to the game wherever I've gone.
"I've always wanted to find the best for that group and best for each individual in that group to be the best they can be and for that team to be the best they can be.
"So whether that was the Matildas or the Central Coast or a kids team, I've never really wavered from that.
"Regardless of whether people think I've made good decisions, or bad decisions, or team selections or whatever, deep down in my heart, I just want to see football succeed and I want it to be the biggest sport in the country.
"That will never change and that's really at the core and foundation of what I believe so in my heart I always tried to do that.
But he admits: "I've been coaching now for 22 years – but I'm a rookie in the job in A-League terms.
"I'm learning every day. And as I said, I'm loving it..."